hmm well this is my first blog entry dont rlly know what to write about but w/e.....its strange how someone can call you their best friend and wen someone cooler comes along your nothing.
and its also strange how when you go away or dont see people in a while they dont look for you when you thought they were your friends. My life seems like a big vicious circle of strugles and pain, it seems like theres no reason to try because everytime i do something else gets in the way and no matter what you try to do something fucks it up regardless of how hard you try. I just wish that i could start over knowing what i do now and not have to live day to day wondering if im going to be able to eat or if im gonna talk to one of my "friends" that never call me or ask me to do stuff. I dont know why its always so hard fr me i mean with all the shit ive been through havent i payed my dues? well i guess thats enough ranting for one night let me know what you think