fuck the world cuz its mine

from the darkside-

i know i'm from the darkside
seems to me its where my heart rides
a hard life ,scared by the way of the knife
praying i don't see today
knowin tomorrow is when i'll die
and if i lived in fear,slit from ear to ear
would i still try and get here
an outlaw just sittin here drinking beer
about to fall due to the sinking tears
that i'v bled for years
looking back,glad i didn't stay on track
addicted to the pistol whippin and battle axe
a criminal mastermind binded by the facts of crimes
in my mind your wrong and i'm right
and untill the end of time
i'm a fight till i'm blinded by the light
cuz the real me don't really care who i'm hurtin
even in the dark night he's lurkin
do you want to see how my thoughts keep workin
cuz i'm stuck in the dirt swervin
and even though i'm good,the evilness in me
is about to break the wood,cursin my childhood
for hearing these voices that gave me two choices
and do i deserve forgiveness for living in bliss
ignorrance got me acting arrogant and souless
tryin to hold the hope seems hopeless
but thats what the dope does kids
look at me see how much i loved it
but look where i'm at when i got above it
workin for minimum wage just to keep my demons caged
just so they don't see me on the front page
smokin blunts like a shaman sage
once saw a man with a twelve-gauge
put it to my face to put me in my place
now he got nothing left to say cuz of my rage
as i engage in a new battle


my thoughts-

at times i wonder if my minds going somewhere
i sit at this pond and ponder looking beyond the horizon
the sun rises and goes back under
and i have ta ask why do whites and blacks collide like thunder
when i was younger we was taught that we are all equals besides colour
it bothers me when i see racist faces hollerin like we was evil
i wish it was easy for the good people who ain't usin dope needles
stuck without hope don't know if i can cope
on my knee askin god please let me feel the summer breeze
seize the moment i try if i can grab it and hold it but i just let go of it
the world moves so slow i wonder if i'll ever grow older
i'm losing the good in me cuz hood tragedy
keeps following me in the path i lead
and too much hate got me losing faith
i'm tired of tryin to wait for another mistake
if i give less, seems they just take more
so what am i still waiting for? love to walk through my door?
a dove to make me soar? i don't know anymore
wish it was the same but the world don't wanna change
niggas an cats up in the range
a twelve gauge is the only thing to keep me tame
night sky's makes the light cry
dads and moms losin sons to be the one with a gun
will i ever see it be done? seeing the sunset
this is why i write cuz life seems ta be lifeless
an no drivebys could bite this not even full clips would end it
and i look out every mornin see a brewin storm swarmin
alla sudden everybody wanna be born again
but even in, tha darkest night, we all give up our hardest fight
ta start a new life tryin ta be like this lost heart, ripped apart by bliss
we all loss tha pathway ta get up an see a new day
due to tha views we chose ta play
an they say its ok ta live in sin
so tell me, why do i feel guilty
in tha sins that fill me

who gives a fuck what this song is called-

living in a doubt
this drought got me seeking a different route
innocence is out
thats what they keep tellin me when I scream and shout
use ta give a fuck
now I wanna give it up
cuz I use ta give a fuck
now I could give a fuck less
too much stress livin just ta rest
wishin I would be next ta get hit by death
crush my spirits and take my last breath
I'm a mutt
yeah lets hear it
I'm fucked up
so lets tear shit
get this over and done quick
ain't got time ta run in thick or thin
too much is already too little to go in......
and
it ain't worth being caught
thats why when i hit tha dirt
it's cuz I got shot
not gonna get locked up
fuck that I'm a go out swingin
hold out till I aint singin
cuffs ain't for me
buckin till I cant breathe
fuck it they ain't gonna smash my dreams
I'm still truckin up this stream
so who's it gonna be
so who's it gonna be ta leave tha TVPD
BD's gonna be all about me
so how about beef
lets spark shit in tha streets
till my heart gives I ain't gonna quit from tha heat
I can hear them drums beat
hear them commin for me
run an I'll be ends meat
fight
then see who's left tha end me.........

I'm no body-

all i could see was a bullet tellin me to squeeze
and end this misery
as tha bullshit finally hits tha breeze
sumthin keeps tuggin at my sleeves
its my concence sayin this is nonsense
its not worth it to try an leave
even though your hurt kid
you still have the mind to succeed
and with time you can achieve
your broken dreams...
but with me it ain't like that
rather see niggaz bleed
dyin from my envy as i fight back
right jabs attacking with jealousy
hope they throw me six feet... deep
in tha ground...where i can't be found
I gotta be lost or paths ill cross
then gats ill get tossed...necks ill get chopped
watch the bloodspillin as cops get caught up in the killin
this is how I'm really feelin
cuz suicide is on my mind
any minute could be my time
could decide to finally just die
which sounds fine...
i hear death callin me
hope it hits silently but if i die violently
then im takin everybody
cuz I'm nobody till somebody kills me

smokescreens-

first i had to fall
got mad cuz i want it all
now saddness is all i ever feel
with that said don't know whats real
cuz with every deal that i make
the devil comes right back ta spit in my face
moving from place ta place the days go to waste
as i watch time go away as the mind turns ta paste
i see....heavens gates close to me
but when i get to the doors they'z closed for me

and to me everything is smokescreens and broken dreams
nuthing is what it really seems
reality is just another form of going upstream
till your left with memories
but to me everything is smokescreens and broken dreams
nuthing is what it really seems
reality is just another form of going upstream
till your left with nothing

as i lie in limbo wondering if i'll ever see the wind blow
something comes to me right through the window
a letter of lost hope due to the dope
dude smoked so much lost his home
his wife left him now he sits all alone
as regret sets in he's still on that pipe puffin
stuck in a life of misery he'll never see what was meant to be
cuz every scar still has momets ta bleed

and to me everything is smokescreens and broken dreams
nuthing is what it really seems
reality is just another form of going upstream
till your left with memories
but to me everything is smokescreens and broken dreams
nuthing is what it really seems
reality is just another form of going upstream
till your left with nothing

and sometimes i just sit and weep
try an cry myself ta sleep
cuz it feels like god wont judge me
like i wuz dealt a hand full of slugs that dug deep
with a grudge that keeps pickin at me
stuck without a paddle up this creek
and it sucks when your will get weak
gettin sick of listening to tha same system speak
wishin i could just leave


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hope its 2day-

now i aint perfect
and my wordsmith
aint really worth it
but iv been in worse shit
than anyone could ever predict
iv seen so much
that i no longer know whats what
to the point where i just don't give a fuck
reality's excaped me now that my family hates me
cuz they aint made me tha way they see fit
and i'm tired of running through the mist
wish my moms would come to this
but fuck it hurts with this curse
digging up tha dirt just ta put myself in a hearse
workin till my sweat soaks through my shirt
so its time for my mind to go berserk
so all iv got left to say....fuck it
i hope i die today

-im fucked up beyond shit-

i think i like being hated, degraded and havin no date ta date wit
cuz i'd probably just take some ducktape an rape tha bitch
you could take two sticks an make yous a crucifix
but it ain't stoppin me from doin stupid shit
i'm tired of slittin my own two wrist
i'm so pissed off cuz the worlds such a rip off
i'm ready ta get a chainsaw and have everybody offed
i think i need ta be locked up or stuffed in a box
buried alive somewhere over there
i'm so carefree i'm barely aware of the air i breathe
smoked so much weed i need some oxygen
my soul is so evil from the people
i'm talkin to satan about gettin even
wantin to leave them bleedin with no medic ta see them
and if tha police want beef then
i'm a leave it in tha streets of Blackdiamond
find me some crack an start wilin
my heart's dyin,my mind is finally corrupt
the sky is my limit time for me get up and win it
and i ain't interested in investigations or who's being arrested
its probably best if the world don't let me live
my death ill leave no rest in whats left to give
and if i'm given a second chance
best believe there ain't gonna be a last dance
if theres any rage left in this cage
then the only defence is to hop over these fences
i'm tryin ta be suicidal but all i got is a bottle of mydol
cuz tylenol just ain't weak enough for me ta meet my idol
i'm a be tha first canadian on american idol
tell simon its time ta go to hell and seek the devil
i ain't here to preach or become christian
honestly i'd rather burn and piss on them
i wanna teach kids how to grow up an rape sluts
blow up buildings and take stuff while sniffin snuff
usin ducktape to fuck your roommates in tha butt
till tha blood covers the drapes up
i wake up baked still fucked from the previous night
its ovious i'm pretty twisted,you agree with me,right?
i went to the doctors and ended knockin up tha nurse
she gives birth at the first of the month
so i'm a kick the stupid cunt and smoke me a blunt

-"BOB"-
niggas in ma faction don't ask questions
we just grab tha smith n wessin
an start pressin till ya'll start stressin
i got a good heart but when it gets dark
i spark shit just ta test'em till ya learn ya lesson
schools out,three o'clock is when we bout
nuttin to figure out cuz you fools in a cloud of clout
ya'll just go talk,or walk if ya'z got a glock ta pop
then come talk to me if ya wanna fuck wit me

-trevor-
back then it use to be,tupac and b.i.g
use to blast eazy-e an run dmc
up on tha stereo no t.v.
now all i see..is lonely homies
tryin ta own me but nobody can hold me
so i'm a keep on rapping till we get our dream(x2)

-slim.45-
yo..yo
as a young kid growin up
use ta have big dreams of blowin up
wit pictures of me in rap magazines
now i'm stuck holdin my nuts
tryin ta come up in tha big leagues
runnin the rap scene
tha worlds cold when shit starts happ-ning
cops pass we push tha gas
now look whos laugh-ing
its all fucked up
when cats get ta clapp-ing
so bring yo bats an get smashed ta smithereens
thats it and thats me

-trevor-
back then it use to be,tupac and b.i.g
use to blast eazy-e an run dmc
up on tha stereo no t.v.
now all i see..is lonely homies
tryin ta own me but nobody can hold me
so i'm a keep on rapping till we get our dream(x2)

-slim.45-
here comes a monster here ta stomp ya
here i slum to a new low,here ta fuck you ho's
and not sexual, fuck, i'd rather have sex with a dead animal
and then slam you all with your head's splattered on tha wall
call me a phyco cuz i go loco, fuck tha popo
i'm a die slow by 5-o in a driveby if i don't go
an why da fuck would i wanna grow
i'm just gonna smoke tha dro till my lungs are full
so i'm a wave, good-bye, hope i, die today

-trevor-
back then it use to be,tupac and b.i.g
use to blast eazy-e an run dmc
up on tha stereo no t.v.
now all i see..is lonely homies
tryin ta own me but nobody can hold me
so i'm a keep on rapping till we get our dream(x2)

-trevor-
now i aint perfect and my wordsmith
aint really worth it but iv been in worse shit
than anyone could ever predict
iv seen so much that i no longer know whats what
to the point where i just don't give a fuck
reality's excaped me now that my family hates me
cuz they aint made me tha way they see fit
and i'm tired of running through the mist
wish my moms would come to this
but fuck it hurts with this curse
digging up tha dirt just ta put myself in a hearse
workin till my sweat soaks through my shirt
its time for my mind to go berserk
so all iv got left to say....fuck it