i drove up to the city at night and found the place where you grew up and then where you stayed and we walked around and stayed up late and i spent the night under the city lights next to you in the house where you grew up, next to you i miraculously woke up in your parents' house i laid in bed with you/ i went back to feel alone there, i went back to wipe it clean. i took the lights and radio towers out of my dreams./ we went all the way up to the small town where i'm from with foggy air and the wind and the mountain top and we clung to the rocks and we looked off, you held my hand and almost got to start feeling me. i finally felt like i was breathing free. under swaying trees we fell asleep and had the same dream. the stars were bright. now we dream the same every night. on my island home i spent some time with you./ i had to go back and feel alone there. i went back there by myself and gave up everything that we'd felt./ we found a precious place in the sand right out in the wind and we laid under a blanket and heard the furious sound of roaring waves, the pounding surf. 2 bodies on the earth: it was intense just getting to be there next to you. ( ). and you were trying to get me then. i was happy to let you in./ i went back and wished i hadn't. i went back and felt regret. i went to the beach and i stared west./ every night when the sun went down in the town where we live the empty streets were lit up by reflected light from a distant sun bouncing off a flowing ball of rock. we just laid on the roof and watched the moon. The mooon! The blue light of the moon! we didn't talk and silently we both felt powerful. like the moon my chest was full because we both knew we're just floating in space over molten rock and we felt safe and discovered that our skin is soft. there's nothing left except certain death and that was comforting out under the moon./ i went out last night to forget that. i went out and stared it down but the moon just stared back at me and in its light i saw my 2 feet on the ground.