fuck you, and you, and you oh and FUCK YOU TOO

last thing i think about before sleep, and the first thing i think about when i wake up.
i need this to stop.

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I haven't wrote one of these things in so long, so heres an update on life.

- gage is gonna be three in a month and a half!
- no more hair, shaved off. yuck
- surprisingly still single, no more jesse

and of course one of these.

1) i love you more than anything or anyone... slowly things are going back to the way they were. i promise it wont be long untill its back 100% working hard on it baby,
and no matter im always going to be proud of ya!
2) i thought you were sincere, gave you benefit of the doubt. no more, never again. you fucked us over big time. you cant take him away and never will. have fun living in your garage, when you could have woken up everyday to a beautiful son. oh well your loss not mine, hopefully you'll grow up before its too late and realize what you're slowly losing. you cant get time back. i hope you well in your life, but you owe him a huge apology, better sooner than later. hes getting older and realizing more and more. you have no idea how much it hurts me to see the happiness in his eyes for 10 minutes when you came to see him, only to just dissappear again.
3) Thank you. i cant describe in words how thankful i am to have met you. you helped me in more ways than you realize, i cant even put it into words what id like to say to you.

singleeee life baby

Time to get my life back together.

I thought I saw a sign, somewhere between the lines. Maybe its me, maybe I only see what I want.
Or I still have your letter, just got caught between. Someone I just invented who I really am, and who I've become.

I just want you to know I hold you up above everyone.

I cant wait to see you, wanna see if you still got that look in your eyes.
That one you had for me, before we said our goodbyes.
Its a shame that we got to spend our time bein mad about the same things.


I remember the day you left, I remember the last breath you took right infront of me.
When you said that you would leave, I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything.
I see clearly now, and this choice I made keeps playin in my head, over and over again.

i hope you miss enough one day to come home, im so nervous about tonight

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like. And right now its a steal knife in my windpipe.

girls night tonight♥

biggest mistake of my life. what can i do im sorry and i just need to see you.
and hopefully tomorrow goes over well, if youre even gonna be there..

what do you do when you lose your entire world? when everything is destroyed, and youre watching it,
but cant do anything to change it?

because ive lost my entire world.

amazing weekend with you.

Update:
- not blonde anymore
- gage is almost 2 1/2
- got fired, fuck you!
- started new habits, dirt.
- winnipeg on the 23rd
- getting a kitten soon ♥

I hope they never find out, what they already know, know, know. As as soon as it's official, we'll have to let it go.
So we don't confirm the fling, keep avoiding all the questions.
You'll get teased for many things, and I'm just scared to learn a lesson.

I guess that I'm a little bit in love with you..