i can't even explain how my mind is working right now.
i just want like one really good day. i'm just so unhappy, in general.
i think i might have actually made myself content with unhappiness.
it's not fair that i should have to get used to that
i want something better.
i don't know. i'm just upset. i want to go somewhere.

my mother can go fuck herself.

Christopher Sholes and the First Ever Typewriter!

I'm using a keyboard to type out this line
As the computer processes this poem of mine
I click on a button at the top of my screen
And the computer starts up another machine
My paper appears fresh from this device,
And my work is finished, clear and concise

Someone from way back couldn't begin to convey,
What these machines are that we use nearly everyday
So I say we go back to the year 1868
When the new invention, the typewriter, was completely top rate

In this year, Christopher Sholes made an invention
But the end result was not his intention
He made a machine with numbers on keys
And a lawyer wondered "Could you put letters on these?"

So Christopher Sholes went to work with this plan
Planning to finish an entirely new man
See, he'd been a politician, worked for the state
He'd been a writer of sorts, but none were his fate
He could be a musician, scientist or mentor
But Chirstopher knew, he wanted to be an inventor

Soon the time came, the invention complete
A machine to type words, orderly and neat
An inventor with an invention to make the world brighter
Christopher Sholes and the first ever typewriter!

A mechanical device with a set of ABC's
That makes words appear on paper when you press the keys
Now, to us this may seem a little out-dated
But citizens from back then marvelled at what was created

This machine gave the gift of writing alone
Typing out pages from the comforts of home
But this invention is still responsible for more
The typewriter has enabled us to produce books galore

Authors like Jane Austen wrote novels by hand
Because there had not yet been an invention so grand
Mark Twain was the first author with the priveledge to submit
Life on the Mississippi, the first ever type-written manuscript

The next gift Christopher gave us is used to this day
The QWERTY keyboard became the new keyboard display
He noticed that keys often used were too close together
So he switched them around, away from one another
So the arrangement you admire when you're texting away
Christopher Sholes is responsible for today

So, it may seem to us a minor design
But the typewriter is actually, really benign
The typewriter may seem like a simple creation
But so many things have been designed in relation

The keyboard, computer and texting too
All of these things that are relatively new
None of these things that recieve such admiration
Would be possible without Christopher Sholes and his fantastic creation!

"They're not holding back, and you're fighting with Band-Aids and teddy bears, and they've got sticks and stones."

Things I'm getting! :)

In the next month or so:
Cutting/dying my hair (Layered, black, white, pink & blue)
Contacts
The other side of my nose pierced
Clothes, finally !
New shoes
PETA Clothing

After Grad:
Snakebites or spiderbites
Tongue piercing
Miniature pot-bellied pig (black & white)

"To my mind the life of a lamb is no less precious than that of a human being. I should be unwilling to take the life of a lamb for the sake of the human body. I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it is to protection by man from the cruelty of man."
- Mahatma Gandhi

Truely man is the king of beasts, for his brutality exceeds theirs. We live by the death of others: we are burial places! I have from an early age abjured the use of meat, and the time will come when men such as I will look on the murder of animals as they now look on the murder of men.
- Leonardo da Vinci

"Anyone who has accustomed himself to regard the life of any living creature as worthless is in danger of arriving also at the idea of worthless human life."
Albert Schweitzer

"The greatness of a nation and it's moral progress can be judged by the way it's animals are treated."
Mahatma Gandi

"What is it that should trace the insuperable line? The question is not, can they reason? Nor, can they talk? But, can they suffer?"
Jeremy Bentham

"Our task must be to free ourselves, by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature and it's beauty."
Albert Einstein

"As long as there are slaughterhouses, there will be battlefields."
Leo Tolstoy

"Veganism acknowledges the intrinsic legitimacy of all life. It recognizes no heirarchy of acceptable suffering among sentient creatures. It is no more acceptable to kill creatures with primitive nervous systems than those with highly developed nervous systems. The va;ue of life to it's possessor is the same, whether it be the life of the clam, a crayfish, a carp, a cow, a chicken, or child."
Stanley Sapon

"Can you really ask what reason Pythagoras had for abstaining from flesh? For my part I rather wonder both by what accident and in what state of soul or mind the first man did so, touched his mouth to gore and brought his lips to the flesh of a dead creature, he who set forth tables of dead, stale bodies and ventured to call food and nourishment the parts that had a little before bellowed and cried, moved and lived. How could his eyes endure the slaughter when throats were slit and hides flayed and limbs torn from limb? How could his nose endure the stench? How was it that the pollution did not turn away his taste, which made contact with the sores of others and sucked juices and serums from mortal wounds?… It is certainly not lions and wolves that we eat out of self-defense; on the contrary, we ignore these and slaughter harmless, tame creatures without stings or teeth to harm us, creatures that, I swear, Nature appears to have produced for the sake of their beauty and grace. But nothing abashed us, not the flower-like tinting of the flesh, not the persuasiveness of the harmonious voice, not the cleanliness of their habits or the unusual intelligence that may be found in the poor wretches. No, for the sake of a little flesh we deprive them of sun, of light, of the duration of life to which they are entitled by birth and being."
—Plutarch

So, I decided it was probably time to get some music on my new laptop. Not too much, but I downloaded my favorites from the following:

Bob Marley
Grateful Dead
The Beatles
Boomtown Rats
Michael Jackson
The Hollies
The Who
Led Zeppelin
Journey
Elton John
Fleetwood Mac
The Eagles
The Spill Canvas
Paperlace
The Carpenters
Kings of Leon
Alice Cooper
The Clash
The Ramones
Billy Joel
War
Nitty Gritty Dirt Band
The Doors
Simon and Garfunkel
The Supremes
Rolling Stones
Chicago
Genesis
Beach Boys
Strawberry Alarm Clock
Velvet Underground
Forever The Sickest Kids
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Demi Lovato
AC/DC
Aerosmith
Uncle Kracker
Cage The Elephant
Paramore
Flyleaf
Otep

And then some randoms from other artists. The 25,000 songs I used to have are not going to fit on here so it made more sense to put my favorites on first.

95% Percent of teens would have a breakdown if Miley Cyrus was standing on the edge of a tower ready to jump. Copy and paste if you're a part of the 5% yelling "Jump Bitch"

I drowned out all my sense
With the sound of it's beating
And that's what you get
When you let your heart win

" you have his eyes, .. and his brains "
"thanks. i'll try to keep mine in my skull."

"The time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals, as they now look upon the murder of men."
- Leonardo de Vinci