Only if you knew what was best for me,
i know you care,
but you dont understand how i feel now.
No body understood that I actually did love him,
whatever, too late now.
Not like it matters, I've already lost him,
and for what.., distance.
I just don't want to live.[/font]
soo I dont know how to escape,
I want to leave this place that I put myself in,
yet I'm in too deap,
and I'm scared to get out,
I know it's gunna hurt, and I know I'm not gunna be happy,
soo I dont wanna have to face those facts yet.
so I found out, i dont want help escaping
i dont want to escape yet.
If you ever, ever touch me again...
I'm fucking calling the cops on you,
get the fuck out of my life.
Can't you honestly leave me the fuck alone?
like seriously, you scare me, you hurt me, you piss me off,
you get mad at me for no reason, you never fucking understand me,
all i wanna do is fucking be there and be nice, but no,
that never gets to happen.
No one ever fukcing understands me anymore,
they accuse me of stupid shit, and it hurts,
maybe i just wanted to fucking get away for a bit,
thats why im never fukcing here, like god,
take the fucking hint,
i know if im around all we fucking do is fight and shit gets just out of hand
and i dont like it, soo i am never fucking here, then i get introuble,
than the thing that i am trying to avoid, happens anyways.
Like seriously, i love you, but you dont understand what you are doing to me.
You let him hurt me, and you dont even fucking care, untill i whine about it,
i dont wanna fight with you, ever! but sometimes you make it hard not to.
Like seriously, if you knew anyhting, youd know that i fucking hate him,
yes he may fucking be related to me, but i am fucking terrified of him,
i'm used to giving second chances, but i've given him way too many,
and now im just sick of getting hurt, not emotionally either,
fucking physically, and you sit by and pretty much just watch it happen.
You know what, im sick of all this, im hurt too much,
just leave me the fuck alone. Yes, you are the main person in my life,
but trust me, times like this, i really wish you werent.
Yes its horrible to say, but think about what you're doing to me,
before you make your actions, because when you dont,
you hurt me soo bad in the end.
Why dont you realize i dont wanna fight, and i dont want to get hurt anymore,
you should already know that, but becasue youre soo fucking blindsided
to my every movement, you dont. You just take it all out on me,
not knowing or realizing that one, its totally wrong,
two, its hurting me too much and im tired of it now, at first i could take it,
but now, it just too much, and three, you've went too far.
Slowly and slowly you're pushing me away, and trust me
thats the last thing youre gunna want to happen,
cuz the position im in at the moment, stupid stuff could happen,
i just dont let it, yet; and trust me, if that happened,
you'd never be able to forgive yourself,
just because you'd know it was youre fault.
Thanks for pushing me away even more ***,
you're just one of the main causes for my being soo isolated,
next time you wonder why im not at home alot,
go fucking look in the mirror, than maybe you'll see what the fuck you are doing to me