RIP MY LITTLE CAR! OH HOW I WILL MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!

I have blue eyes and I just recently dyed my hair black.
I attempt to play guitar.
I bellydance.

Dancing where the stars go blue.
Dancing where the evening fell.
Dancing in your wooden shoes.
In a wedding gown.
Dancing out on 7th street.
Dancing through the underground.
Daincing little marionette.
Are you happy now?
Where do you go when you're lonely.
Where do you go when you're blue.
Where do you go when you're lonely.
I'll follow you.
When the stars go blue.
Laughing with your pretty mouth.
Laughing with your broken eyes.
Laughing with your lover's tongue.
In a lullaby.
Where do you go when you're lonely.
Where do you go when you're blue.
Where do you go when you're lonely.
I'll follow you.
When the stars go blue.
The stars go blue, stars go blue.

I'm not afraid of standing still, I'm just afraid of being bored.
I'm not afraid of speaking my mind, I'm just afraid of being ignored.
I'm not afraid of feeling and I'm not afraid of trying.
I'm just afraid of losing and I am afraid of dying.
I'm not afraid of being sick, I'm more afraid of being well.
I'm not afraid put the gun in my hand, I'm just afraid it will hurt like hell.
I'm not afraid of screaming and I'm not afraid of crying.
I'm just afraid of forgetting and I am afraid of dying.
I'm not afraid of looking ugly, I couldn't care what they say.
I'm not afraid of happy endings, I'm just afraid my life won't work that way.
I'm not afraid of forgiveness, I absolve you everything.
I'm not afraid of lying but I am afraid of dying.

I have scars on my body from using myself.
Abusing myself in sickness and in health.
I have bruises on my body which go away with time but remain in my mind forever
As a constant reminder of the last man i loved, loathed, left.
I have the word 'truth' on my arm because there is no room for honesty when you're a liar.
I have a tattoo on the back of my neck which i cannot see, but i can feel.
I have a tattoo on my stomach which in italian means 'the sweet life'.
I have the word 'love' in flames surrounded by stars on my right wrist
Because these five fingers go straight into the soul of man.
I have the word 'hate' on my left wrist because the left hand is the hand of hate
And it was with this hand that cain knifed his brother.
I'm right handed. Maybe that's my problem. My ruin.

Aleks aka MrAlbert. My sexy sexy boyfriend! Hottest guy ever!
MUSIC.
Mike's PIMPIN car.... hottest wheels I've ever seen.
Best thing ever = going to shows.
The Wonder Twins in Spruce Grove was the funnest show ever!
Oh yeah and the Allister show with Calico Drive. *sighs* Amazing!
Bellydancing and the pretty costumes that come with it.
Hanging out with my friends.
Meeting new people is good too.
Alex is awesome! Yay for my social buddy!
Super Nintendo. Come on the old stuff never dies!
Posters! Getting as many as I can and covering my walls in them.
The lines on the lawn when you first cut it.
The smell after it rains.
Thunderstorms at night.
Watching movies. Yay for my list of movies to watch. (nerd right here) *points to self*
Talking to bands, hearing their stories from the road and getting jealous of them for being so cool.
Singing. WOOT WOOT.
RED and BLACK.
The number 4.
Water.
My pretty guitar. *sighs*
Band shirts. I buy one at every show. I've got quite the collection.
Silver.
Piercings.
Wristbands.
Blankets.
Watching GOOD music videos.
Stickers.
Pins.
Fauxhawks.
The smell of laundry.
Sleeping.
Hugs.
Cuddling.
Meeting other left handed people.
Solitaire.
Dickies.
MSN.
Familiar places.
Small groups of people.
Feeling at home.
Comfy shoes.
Staying out late.
Comfortable silences.
Seeing friends you haven't seen in a while.
Big groups of people.
Parties.
Puzzles.
Text messages.
Sweaters.
Painted nails.
Cheap CDs.
Helium.
Jason's car. (RIP)
1970 Pontiac GTO.
The name Aiden and Astra.
Staring at the stars.
Sleepovers.
Not having your parents at home.
Crying.
Receiving phone calls.
Contradictions.
Having clean clothes.
Kisses on the cheek.
Holding hands.
Playing footsie when no one else knows about it.
Borrowing things.
Cookies.
Shoulders.
Collar bones.
Beauty marks.
Socks.
Feeling happy.
Brown eyes.
The tension you feel right before you're about to kiss someone.
Black lights.
Lists.
Hazelnut.
Whyte Ave.
Collars.
Plaid.
Skirts.
Chains.
Palm muting.
Pick slides.
Sceaming.
Guitar solos.
Juice.
Clouds.
Visiting friends at their work.
Browsing CD stores.
Eyes.
Meaningful conversations.
Lyrics that you can relate to and the feeling you get from just hearing it.
Compliments.
Awkward situations.
Feeling important to someone.
People thinking you're older than you really are.
Surprising people.
Proving others wrong.
Vampires.
Piano.
Holidays.
Randomness.
Being treated like your opinions and thoughts matter.
Adrenaline.
Learning something new.
Closeness.
Love.
The dark.
Heavy breathing.
Trying new things.
Feeling attractive.
Feeling like you could do anything you want to.
Crazy ideas.
Jet black.
Blood red.


Bands:
88 Fingers Louie
A Static Lullaby
Adema
AFI
Agent Felix
Alexisonfire
Alkaline Trio
Allister
Anti-Flag
As I Lay Dying
Assorted Jelly Beans
At Arms Length
Atreyu
At the Drive-In
Bif Naked
Bikini Kill
Billy Talent
Blink 182
Blue Skies and War
Bowling for Soup
Boy Kicks Girl
Boy Sets Fire
BoysNightOut
Brand New
Brandston
Bright Eyes
Brodie
Brother Voodoo
Bush
Calico Drive
Cauterize
Chevelle
CKY
Classified
Closure
Coheed And Cambria
Count the Stars
Crowned King
Cypress Hill
Dashboard Confessional
David Draiman
Death Cab for Cutie
Deftones
Diesel Boy
Dimeadozen
District 7
Don't Look Down
Ender
Eve 6
Face to Face
Fairweather
Finch
Finger Eleven
Flashlight Brown
Fordirelifesake
Four Years Apart
From Autumn to Ashes
Funeral for a Friend
Further Seems Forever
Glassjaw
Gob
Godhead
Goldfinger
Goo Goo Dolls
Good Riddance
Green Day
Haste the Day
High Holy Days
HIM
Hole
Homegrown
Hopesfall
HorrorPops
Ill Bill
Jack Off Jill
Kiros
Korn
Lagwagon
Larger Than Life
Lazyeye
Less Than Jake
Lit
Lost Prophets
Lustra
Mad Caddies
Marilyn Manson
Matthew Good Band
Mest
Midtown
Millencolin
Misery Signals
Moist
Moneen
Moonpools and Caterpillars
Motion City Soundtrack
Mr. T Experience
MxPx
Name Taken
Necro
Nekromantix
Nerf Herder
New Found Glory
Nirvana
No Use for a Name
No Doubt
No One's Hero
No Use for a Name
NOFX
Nothing to Lose
NWA
Oasis
Once By Chance
Osker
Our Lady Peace
Ozzy Osbourne
Pennywise
Pocket Full of Posers
Poison the Well
Rancid
Reel Big Fish
Refused
Relient K
Rise Against
Robin Black and the Intergalactic Rockstars
Rooney
Saliva
Saves the Day
Second to None
Serial Joe
Sex Pistols
Scratching Post
Silverchair
Slick Shoes
Slipknot
Sloppy Meateaters
Social Code
Something Corporate
Sowatt
Static X
Stone Sour
Story of the Year
Stretch Armstrong
Student Rick
Stutterfly
Sublime
Suck La Marde
Switchfoot
System of a Down
Taking Back Sunday
Taproot
Ten Foot Pole
tensecondepic
The Ataris
The Contingency Plan
The Distillers
The Get Up Kids
The Getaway
The Juliana Theory
The Killers
The Movielife
The Starting Line
The Used
ThreeFoot
Thrice
Thursday
Tiger Army
Trapt
Trik Turner
Twice for Nothing
Underoath
Unwritten Law
Wayne Static
Wu Tang Clan
Yellowcard

Spiders.
Slow walkers.
Cars that break down.
Fighting with people.
When your computer shuts off or freezes randomly for no reason.
CD players that don't read burnt CDs.
Being sick.
Bad smelling air fresheners.
The word 'unfurl'.
Headphones that don't work.
Dead batteries.
Feet.
Scatched cds so that they skip when you play them.
Yellow traffic lights. It's like the kiss of death.
The cops showing up at parties.
Crumbs on your shirt when you're sitting on the couch eating.
People touching my ears.
People who don't talk much on MSN.
Jealous people.
People who don't know me and still don't like me.
Interviews.
Not having blinds.
Not being able to find a job.
Not getting a good nights sleep.
Being sick.
When people tell you they're coming to pick you up and just leave you sitting and waiting.
Curfews.
Jason's truck. Boo on that truck! I will NEVER love it!
Biting my nails.
My bed..... it squeaks.... boo on that as well.
Feeling tired.
Feeling sad.
People thinking you're WAY younger than you really are.
My mom's crazy rules!!!!
Working.
Sneezing more than 3 times in a row.
Shopping.
Feeling lonely.
Chewing.
Sonic the Hedgehog games.
Smoking.