aj's party was dope, i miss soo many people
colin spencley is coming to chill on monday... wierd, never thought him and i would chill like the old days, we exchanged old war stories from years ago.
i wish sarah had a better birthday, she seems pretty bummed out. i want to try and find a way to make her birthday up for her and put her back in a good mood<3

everyone has it but me
there has got to be something fundamentaly wrong with me
people use to want to chill.

i get my zombie jesus hand tattoo on the third!
pretty stolked on that and i get to see my faveorite homie dave too.
hes like my theropist, shit melts away and i relax when i get my ink fix

...im lonley

god shes amazing.

deep breath, muster up the all gutts i need and hope i dont hit the floor.
moving forward is better than staying stagnant.

she makes me smile

im thinking of getting the five hawk if not the tri hawk back now, my hair sucks.

turn your pennies into nickles into dimes into dollers.
strighten your hat and whipe the blood off your collar.

daddy...

just got back from camping, i had a bunch of people ask me what i was drinking that day.lol so i think everyone on the campsite thinks im a drunk now, it was fun tho, i got intensley burnt and harassed by kids, the only thing i would have changed is that sarah could have come and that there were more burgers and rum.

Do you want me to show up for duty and
Serve this woman and honor her beauty and
Finally you have found something perfect and
Finally you have found... yourself

With me... will... you... agree to take
This man... into your world...
And now... we are as one...

My lone ranger the heat exchanger
Is living in this figure eight
And I'll do my best to recreate and

Sweet precision and soft collision awww
Hearts about to palpitate
And I find it hard to seperate and

All I want is for you to be happy and
Take this woman and make you my family and
Finally you have found someone perfect and
Finally you have found... now

All I want is for you to be happy and
Take this woman and make you my family and
Finally you have found someone perfect and
Finally you have found... yourself

for a lack of a less lame paragraph; i really diddint want this morning to end, i diddint want her to leave, everything was perfict, i was sooo happy to lay next to her and just be with her, literaly everything iv been bitching about for... i dont know, a long time! was procured
i just hope now that we spend more time with eachother on a regular basis
hafgdhfkha!~
i love her!

something is distroying me from inside
someone i care about is eroding there body, life and soul
i want them to stop, i see many either taking it easyer and starting to quit or stoped all together
but this person for whome i care so fuckin much for and would rather lose a limb of mine than to see her get hurt seems to be losing herself in this chemical dependancy
and i want to ask her to try and stop but i dont think that i hold that much sinyourity in her life to ask such a large task, i just want her to be ok, i want her to know how much i care about her, how much i love her, she means too much to me
she's always in my mind and with that is the fear of her and drugs,fuck... maby i worry too much