Hey It was My 18th Birthday on Friday. I decided to go the Dylan O'Connors because i have been there before and you don't have to be 18 to get in. So i went there and had a couple of drinks with some friends. Then some more of my friends came but the stupid guy at the door would not let them in cause they weren't 18, BULLSHIT. So i finished my drinks with my friends that were 18 and we left. We found the nearest beer vendor and i bought some beer. MMMMMM.... i love beer, especially MGD. but anyways then we went to a school and drank it was awesome except not alot of people were drunk that kind of sucked because it was my 18th birthday and i wanted everyone to be drunk. But that is ok i had a good time. That night was probably the last night that i will hang out with Sophie, unless i can save up the money to go to Germany. But i will miss her and everyone that is leaving
. I wish i could have spent more time with everyone, although i did spend lots of time with everyone i don't think i spent enough. Im pretty messed up right now, with my cutting HI into my wrist right now. People might think i want attention, but that is not what i want i want less attention. Honestly i hate attention, im usually a shy guy, its just me. With me cutting myself people get the wrong impression of me and its not that, i like the feeling of the knife going through the skin or the sight of blood. So please don't give me advice or try to get me help, i need to figure this out for myself.



