i am a total geek and ummm i like men,PORN and small children jk women are a fine as most and i change my sence of style quite abit so nothing to say in that department. soo as i move on ill bring up i am like almost ever other person ALOMST but theres how i am all frecked up on everything and what not but i only have like 5 mins to figure out what to write and what not soo ill just add more in the next couple of days, mmmmmmkkkk, I am a women in which i am a girl i am respectable in almost every sense but its mutal if u really want to be treated nice just try to treat ppl nice thats about it hmm not in the mood to....... i am not on this site to try to get a bf or whatever just to pass the time friends may come out of this but i dont really belive in internet dating its okay but its not for me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, AND please another thing dont msg me to say lets get it on or some bull like that please i am not a slut or a whore and just bcuz u say u wont say anything doesnt mean i am a closet slut either i am really just myself if u dont like me then thats fine i am happy with myself and try to make my friends and family i love very much happy with me to,,,,,,,,,,,, ID just like to add that my family is my world and i am sorry i hurt your guys and gurls b4 but i am trying soo hard to be the best i can i hurt my dad soo much and hes gone now i didnt think hed ever be taken from me that soon but i have to face the facts and i really cant its scary i just pretend hes still in that hospital and i just havent gone to see him..... a month or so before he got sick i told him i loved him and he just started crying and came and hugged me and he said i havent heard u say that in years didnt think u loved me anymore and did that hurt and i knew from that moment id show my love for ppl not be so selfish show ppl i care whenever i have feelings let them out be completly honest and i am doing okay soo far...... I AM JUST KINDA RAMBLING ON SOO BARE WITH ME,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, oooooo then theres my mom shes the light in my darkness picks me up whenever i fall and i just finally figured out that i may loose her anytime could be anyday so i must cherish to her to the last kiss on her cheek to the last hug b4 i go to bed or leave her side... i just know now that i am here for a reason and really know one can bring me down words dont hurt me rejection doesnt hurt me really the pl that are rude theres something wrong with them just bcuz they were better pakced but seriously i am in love with a person hes not alive anymore but he was and well always be my one and only we played togther as kids he was my best friend david i love u and always well u were they best and still are,....... NEW PART... fix it later.... well i feel soo down and out now adays it makes me sick to think sometimes i actually feel sympothy for myself kinda lame.... but whatever i am sure this well pass.... i have yet to do many things with my life i feel as if i should change the my out looks try to make something outta myself before everything just passes me buy but then... i think what if i die 2morrow i wouldnt have had fun i wouldnt have done this or that its stupid how my mind works i wish it would all just end...... these are ways i feel used alone scared sad happy lonely .... angry i dont know whats wrong with me but nothing ever anymore has a postive effect on me...... but i am due to try to fix it no more messing around!!!!!!!!!!! then theres guys in my life dont let them in they be dicks do things i shouldnt do they praise u its a sick place to live in this world i dont evan wanna have kids to bring them up in this shit hole!