ok well i finaly have the girl aspect of my life figured out, thank god!!! yep i love her for reall people. but my life still isnt easy so im still not done bitching, not yet, mabey this time next week you get a happy blog but not right now. right now me and my lady are liveing out of a backpack going from house to house, she doesnt work, and i work a dead end job, but that may change... mabey (cross your fingrs). im getting really tired of this tho. really tired. its wearing me down qiet alot. i dont know how much i have left in me to tell the truth. but my past is finaly behind me and my future is ahead of me so thats pretty rockin. i keep telling her it will get better but i really dont know anymore. it has to, my life has been to hard, to many strugles, im over due. fuck i love her tho. so much. im so happy right now. wait... what was that?? did i just say im HAPPY?? i just looked back at what i said and yes.. yes i did. well thats a step in the right direction. i supos