sometimes i wonder why i even try anymore...i mean nothing seems to be going right...mostly bout guy*s, i fall fer em n they fuckin` just tear me apart like nothing else i dun get it. there*s this one guy, n i feel bad fer him cuz he*s gonna be whipped out of his goddamn mind soon...he*S already almost there, n he*s a good guy...apparently likes to ditch people...but he*s a good guy. But sooner or later he*ll be whippped like i said n turned into this horrible person that i wont even be able to stand...dun worry , cuz i*ve been thru it before, n seen it all before so whatever...i don*t kno why i even try with him, specially when...well i*m not even gonna say. I just feel so fuckin empty right now, god i hate this feeling...well whatever.
you kno what i hate more then ever...when fucking idiots say they*re all lonely and shit when they have fucking guys/girls all over them. i can*t stand it, like have sum fuckin` respect fer the people who have noone, turn around n fuckin look around n there will be people there fer you, stop bitchin n complaining how yer lonely. ANOTHER hate is when people are fuckin whipped, i just cannot stand that...at fuckin all...girls should treat guys with fuckin respect, they deserve that, dun treat them like a lil puppy dogs, n if your told that you do treat em like that, dun say "well i didn*t mean too" fuckin get off yer ass n fix it, cause its not right, n it*S definately not fair.
whatever...
tomorrow is a new start new semester in school. hopefully i*ll have noone in mi classes so i*ll get good marks...i wish i could just go to a whole new school...just leave everything behind n make it on mi own that*S all i need, is myself...that*s it. I have like 2 people that i trust in mi life, plus mi family. that*S fuckin` sad, the rest i*m like confused n dunno whether to believe em half the time..lovely...no wonder i go out every weekend n drink or smoke lmfao
i miss havin sumone... i hate that. i wish i loved sumone, who would just fuckin` loved me back, i wish there was no drama in mi life...or at least just one day, that i can have to just sit back relax, n smile...goodluck with that in this world...
sorry bou ttha bitchin n complaining...but i had to vent..
