I get enough attention everywhere I go.. I don't need you telling your friends to check me out when they meet me. I like you.. I don't want other guys looking at me.. Just you.. I'm not a fucking piece it meat, so stop telling your friends to check out my chest. I get enough shit everywhere else. I don't need this from you. I want to be yours, not fucking eye raped by your friends.. Like fuck, show some respect.. If you're going to call me yours, then treat me like I'm yours.
So.. Is it a bad thing that last night the guy I like told me that he and his brother had a bet that he wouldn't date me. And if he did, his brother would kick him in the balls. Stupid bet I know lol. But last night he told me that he did fall for me.. And that I was worth the kick in the balls hahaha.. So.. I don't know hahahahaha. Is that bad? Or good? Lol.. Boys are confusing.
You know, it's sad.. I know you're not going to call me like you said you would. But I'm okay with that.. The fact that you called me and apologized, and explained to me what happened makes up for it. You may be a ginormous tool at times. I still adore the fuck out of you. I don't know.. I don't even know why i did this blog. I just felt like writing about pointless shit no one cares about. Haha
Kaite: I farted *giggle* did you hear it? *giggle*
Hahaha that just made my life.
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
() crashed a friend's car
() plan to crash friends car
() stolen a car
(x) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
() slept with more than 10 people
(x) been called a slut
(x) had a one night stand
() slept with someone you don't even know their name
() seen someone die
(x) shoplifted
() been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
() snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back....
() been arrested
() gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) been to the u.s
(x)been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
() been moshing at a concert
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
() squished barefoot through the mud and swam in it
(x) been lost
(x)been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
() paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
() laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
() watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
() crashed a party
(x) gone roller skating
(x) had a wish come true
() humped a monkey
(x) worn a whole lot of jewlery
() jumped off a bridge
() screamed “penis” in class
() ate dog/cat food
() told a complete stranger you love them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
() have a little black book
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
() kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(x) picked and ate an apple
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
() are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) gone streaking.......
() been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're HAWT by a complete stranger
() broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
So, my mom keeps informing me, that I am a negative person.. Everything I do or say is negative. If I get frustrated about something, well, I guess that makes me a negative person. Or if something like, my sister driving me insane pisses me off, OH NEGATIVE PERSON. She insists I change my ways and look at the positive things in life. Yeah, positive things? Like what? I have no friends that haven't betrayed me in some way. Fuck, if you look at it, I have no true friends.. Except my sisters. That's awesome, 18 years old, and I hang out with my sisters friends. It used to be the other way around. She thinks I shouldn't be negative, like my whole fucking world should be fine and fucking dandy.. I can't find one thing, to be positive about, I have no privacy, no life, no friends, I'm completely alone. The one person I love, doesn't want anything to do with me. He treats me like a piece of shit. I wake up in the morning, excited to go back to sleep. So don't fucking complain that I'm negative. I am who I am. I'm not changing because you don't like it.
I'm the kind of girl who doesn't care what people think of her,
but will spend hours just doing her hair.
The kind of girl that will go on stage & dance in front of everyone,
but is shy around the guy she likes.
The kind of girl who will laugh at almost anything,
but cry when things aren't going her way.
The kind of girl who lost her will to trust anybody,
but gets attached to people easily.
The kind of girl who smiles even though
her whole world is shattered to pieces
I'm that kind of girl.
I quit my job today.. I couldn't handle the bullshit.. The fighting, drama, and just plain shit showyness that it was. But now I feel like I have no reason to wake up.. I liked getting up in the morning knowing that I had something to do that day. But now I keep feeling like, what's the point. Why do I need to wake up? I don't have a job, nothing to stop my mind from zooming a billion fucking miles an hour. I didn't realize until now.. I need a job.. I need to feel like someone, somewhere, needs me. It doesn't matter if they need me because noone else can work, I just want someone to need me. That's pretty fucking sad. I haven't even been jobless for 24 hours, and I'm already, depressed and feeling uneasy about it. Why is my brain so fucked up?
