So things lately have been going good, surprisingly. Its crazy, i finally got a job, working night shift yayy lol. That shall be an interesting adventureee! And still working part time, ugh, thats the only bad thing, ill have no free time anymore =( But the money will be just awesome, which is why im doing it! Im pumped for Halloween too, Theresa's house party on halloween night and then a pub crawl the next night!!! As for the guy situation, its non existant, and im okay with that. Im young, just gotta have fun right? But there is one person who is there all the time, Mary Jane, i lovee her =)

Well i have to say that life sucks. And anything i ever wanted got taken away from me in a single moment. Im no longer going to try, its too much work in return for nothing. Its better to just sit around, and hope that tomorrow comes right? I hate how he makes me feel and at the same time i love it. And i know he doesnt even know how much it upsets me..And its going to stay that way. No more letting people through. Fuck it. And my brother is a fucked up retard to add on to this lovely shit thats been happening. It seems like things will never be how they used to.....easy. Everything i do now has some sort of consequence, which usually is negative towards my part. Being an adult isnt all its hyped up to be..I loved my childhood way more than this. I just want to get away for a bit, go someplace where i dont know anyone. Relax and come back when Im ready. Im thinking BC, i have family down there, just go work, snowboard♥ , and not deal with anyone. *sigh* I wish it was that easy to leave this place i hate.

All That Remains + Chiron

Have not the strongest
and closest ties been bound so long
I’ve called upon them
they remind me where I’m from
With deep conviction
I am connected cross the miles
with out them nothing worth relying on

It’s been so long since I could say
I’ve needed anything stronger
We can’t be wrong when we have ties that bind us
if I rely and I know the strength
in those who taught me of the
power in the ties that bind

when I turn inward
and look for strength within my self
and demonstrations of courage
are the result
if inspiration is wholly shared
then more is the gain
then I will follow
the selfless actions displayed

we are made powerful

Finally 18, I made it.


p.s.- got a new cell phonee
218-9093
yayyy

Its Friday, thank god lol
and my birthday is almost here,
getting hammered tonight,
camping tomorrow,
and then sunday night, bar timee =)
fuck yeahh

Im finally 18 in 8 days,
Yayy
All I know is that Im gettin hammered =)

Its coming so fast now, theres no stopping it.
Its been almost 4 years since you left us,
And I still miss you just as much as I did before.
You were the one who kept me sane,
The one who cared no matter what.
You loved me and I loved you, and I still do.
I think about you everyday, all the time.
Your ring is always on my finger, I could never lose it.
Im trying not to be sad, cause you wouldnt want that,
But I cant help it, tears fill my eyes with sorrow,
And hate towards the driver who made the mistake.
I do forgive him, but I will never forget.
I just wanted you to know I love you,
And I know ill see you again someday.
Dont worry, Ill take care of grandpa for you =)

R.I.P Katherine Goebel

So this weeked was the best weekend ever and the worst.
The Good:
Went to the river, tubed, floated around, tanned, got hammeredd =)
Chilled with thee ladies
Saw all the boyss, blazedd
Tented with Shane, got so high in the tent haha
The Bad:
Got fuckin sunbured mostly, half tanned.
The tent in the morning was a million degrees...
Woke up at like 8am, after going to bed at 5ish
The Worst:
Tyler(now ex) came to the exact same place as me? wtf
Totally bitched me out, called me a dumb city bitch,
and pretty much made an idiot of himself,
Ive never been so scared in my entire life....like he was drunk as fuck.
Swearing at me, getting in my face, saying i was cheating on him..
But at least i saw this side of him before i got more attached.
Thee single life is for meee

So maybe just maybe, things are gona be alrite.
I have to be out of my house by the end of june,
dont know where im going yet?
But oh well, things will sort themselves out?? hopefully....
One good thing happened, Tyler ♥
Thank god theres one thing that is stable in my life ahah.
And I think Im going on a quad trip this weekend, yay!
Fuck Spruce Grove, lols, I want something new.
Summer time, fuck yeaa

Diploma tomorrow morning..
..english part a, essays.
ugh, hope i do okay
good luck to those writing =)

Here I am once again...
....I dont know what to do...
about anything.
Where am I going in life?
Whats my purpose now?
Schools done in a week....
....full time job ughhh....
Do i go back to school in september?
Upgrade??...or just go with the flow of things?
I kinda wanna get away from everything....
Like move away, start fresh..
The only thing id miss would be my friends(love you)
and my family(when we get along)...
Fuck.

Fuckin ehh, i had an amazing time....
...met new people
Drank a fuck ton haha
Thanks to Courtney, Erin, Ryland, Mike, Kyle and CLAYTON