Ive been thinking and Ive realized that i have fucked my life up so badly...
And the worst thing about it ... is that my mom ruined it the one person that most girls look at as their best friend the person who they can go to for anything... unfortunately i cant do that.
My grandma died at 54 because of drinking and i KNOW i am going to bury my mom in the next ten years before I'm fucking 30 years old because she drinks so much and there is nothing i can do or anyone can do to make her realize that she is fucking her life up !!!!!
Ive done drugs i stopped that because it fucked with me and i will be screwed up because of them forever. I cut myself and i stopped because i hurt my family well unfortunately i am the type of person who wants everyone around them to be happy so i stopped well now I'm even more of an idiot and I'm anorexic I don't eat very often unless I'm forced to. I keep every thing bottled up which stresses me out even more. I get migraines and stomach aches because of stress and bottling it up.
I'm IN LOVE with a guy named Jake he makes my life yet we fight more than anyone should, and i never want to lose him he means the world to me Ive been with him for a year and nine months and hopefully much longer and he tries to help me yet he gets frustrated because he cant, because i wont tell him anything it upsets him he blames him self and being me i just can't tell him it just isn't easy for me I CAN'T.
Thoughts
+Ive been seeing Jake a lot lately
-My mom called me some names and now im stressed again
+I get to hang with my sis and dad tomorrow
-I haven't eaten in 3 days.
Ok so here's the deal...Start with 100% and minus 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as your %__virgin.
1.Smoked.
2.Drank alcohol.
3.Cried when someone died.
4.Been drunk.
5.Had sex.
6.Been to a concert.
7.Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
8.Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
9.Been verbally sexually harassed.
10.Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
11.Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12.Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13.Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14.Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15.Been to prom.
16.Cried at school.
17.Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18.Went streaking.
19.Given or receieved a lap dance.
20.Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
21.Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22.Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23.Kissed a stranger.
24.Hugged a stranger.
25.Went scuba diving.
26.Driven a car.
27.Gotten an x-ray.
28.Hit by a car.
29.Had a party.
30.Done drugs.
31.Played strip poker.
32.Got paid to strip for someone.
33.Ran away from home.
34.Broken a bone.
35.Eaten sushi.
36.Bought porn.
37.Watched porn.
38.Made porn.
39.Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40.Been in love.
41.Frenched kissed.
42.Laughed so hard you cried.
43.Cried yourself to sleep.
44.Laughed yourself to sleep.
45.Stabbed yourself.
46.Shot a gun.
47.Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48.Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
49.Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
50.Watched an animal die.
51.Watched a person die.
52.Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53.Pranked somebody.
54.Put somebody in the hospital.
55.Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56.Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57.Dressed punk.
58.Dressed goth.
59.Dressed preppy.
60.Been to a motocross race.
61.Avoided somebody.
62.Been stalked.
63.Stalked someone.
64.Met a celebrity.
65.Played an instrument.
66.Ridden a horse.
67.Cut yourself.
68.Bungee jumped.
69.Ding dong ditched somebody.
70.Been to a wild party.
71.Got caught stealing something.
72.Kicked a guy in the balls.
73.Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74.Went out with your friend's crush.
75.Got arrested.
76.Been pregnant.
77.Babysat.
78.Been to another country.
79.Started your house on fire.
80.Had an encounter with a ghost.
81.Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82.Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83.Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
85.Sat on your ass all day.
86.Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87.Had a job.
88.Gotten cut from a sports team.
89.Been called a whore.
90.Danced like a whore.
91.Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92.Been in a car accident.
93.Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94.Been told you have beautiful hair.
95.Raped somebody.
96.Danced in the rain.
97.Been rejected.
98.Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99.Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100.Ever go back to your EX.
YOURSELF - I would like to change my name. I'm loud. I'm random I dont like people although I like meeting new people. I'm easily annoyed. I'm always cold. I have a smile on my face 90% of the time if not something is really wrong. I am always sick. I always speak my mind.
APPEARANCE - I'm shorter than 5'4. I wear makeup. I wear contacts. I have braces. I change my hair color often. I straighten my hair often. I have at least two piercings that aren't in my ears. My ears are pierced.
RELATIONSHIPS - I'm always scared of being hurt. I've been hurt. I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. I've been in love once. I dont believe in love at first sight its pointless to me.
FRIENDSHIP - I have a best friend. I've gotten a phone call in the last 24 hours from a friend. I've beaten up a friend. I've been in a serious fight with a friend. I can trust 3 people with my life.
CLOTHES - I own one pair of jeans way to many shirts to count a purple hoodie and my ex boyfriends hoodie. I dont like socks so i have very few.
EXPERIENCES - I've been on a plane. I've been on a train. I've left the country. I've left the state/province. I've taken a taxi. I've taken a city bus. I've taken a school bus. I've made a speech. I've been in some sort of club. I've won an award. I've spent 24 hours on the computer straight. I've been so angry I've punched the wall.
MUSIC - I listen to country music. I listen to pop music. I listen to rap. I listen to techno. I listen to punk. I'm one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it. I love the radio. I download music. I buy Cd's.
TELEVISION -I dont watch much tv but when i do its either CSI or Criminal Minds.
FAMILY LIFE- I dont have much of a family besides my sisters and dad.
HAIR - My hair has been blonde, rainbow, black, brown, purple and blue. I have it just passed my shoulders i style it or i have it in a bun.
SCHOOL - I skip school a lot, i have good grades i don't like people at my school. I don't like a lot of teachers teaching techniques and i tell the teacher when i don't like them or their technique Ive gotten in trouble for that a lot.
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Name: Natasha
Sex: Female
Nickname: Tash
Location: Calgary
Height: 5'1-5'2
Weight:106 lbs
Hair color: Black
Eye color: Blue and Green
Best friends: Calder Jake Acosta Kaela
Piercings: Bellybutton, lip, ears
Celebrity Crush:
Tattoos: None
Fears: Clowns spiders.
DO YOU:
Smoke: No
Drink: No
Swear: Yes
Want to go to college: Yes
Want to get married: No
Believe in yourself:Not Often
Like thunder/lightning storms: Yes
Want to die: No
DONE IN THE PAST MONTH:
Drank Alcohol: No
Smoked: No
Made out: Yes
Went to the mall: Yes
Been on stage: No
Been dumped: No
Been skinny dipping: No
Stole something: No
HAVE YOU EVER:
Been extremely intoxicated: No
Cried over someone of the opposite sex: Yes
Wanted to tell someone you love them: Yes
Set a body part on fire for amusement: No
FAVOURITES:
Color: Purple, Black
Kind of music: Screamo
Food:
Ice cream:Vanilla
Sport: Soccer
TV Show: Criminal Minds
Fruit: Orange
Store: D-Tox
Holiday: None
Season: Fall
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How do you know the last male you texted?
Known him since grade 3
Were you single on your last birthday?
No
How much longer until your birthday?
April
How was your day today?
Shitty
What was the last movie you watched?
Harry Potter
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Nope
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Yes
Where were you at 8 am this morning?
Sleeping
Do you fall for people easily?
Unfortunately yes
How did your day go yesterday?
Goodish.
Is there anything you should be doing right now?
Nope
How long have you known your best friend?
almost 2 years
Where were you an hour ago?
Outside
Whats on your feet?
Skin?
What were you doing at 2 o'clock this morning?
Watching Sucker Punch
Have ever broken someones heart?
Yes, I have
What time did you wake up this morning?
10 am.
Last meal you ate?
Don't remember
When was the last time you had butterflies in your tummy?
30 Minutes ago
Are you happy?
Not really
Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yes a few
Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Neither
Do you firmly believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yes
Do you think people talk about you?
Yep
Last time you cried? Why?
Couple days ago and no comment
What were you doing at 1am this morning?
Watching Sucker Punch talking to my sister
Where were you Friday night?
I dont know
Do you have any piercings?
Yes
Do you have a best friend to lean on?
Yes
Name something you CANNOT wait for?
My best friend to get home.
Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes
Hugs or Drugs?
Hugs
Do you cook?
Yes
When was the last time you saw your dad?
3 hours ago
Can you cook mac 'n cheese?
Yes
Do you laugh enough?
Probably not
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Nope
Where is your phone?
In my lap
Do you need to say anything to anyone?
I hate you.
Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yes
What are you currently doing besides this?
Talking to my ex
Any plans for tomorrow?
Chill with my sister
Are you going to be home alone tonight?
Yes
Is someone mad at you right now?
Yep.
Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name?
Nacho
In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence?
No
Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
It's fine
Are you a lover or a fighter?
Hm. Fighter.
Would you go out in public looking like you do now?
Sure.
Did you sleep alone last night?
Yes
Are you a heavy sleeper?
Nope
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Paul
How old do you look?
16.
Smoker's can't do this. Hold your breath, put in your name and repost this even while ur coppying and pasting. do not breath until you hit post.
darien
Ana
Chaison
Ryan
Ryan
Ryan
Mikey
Sara
Jesse
Liz
Alana
Adrian
Lizzy
Lisa
JaeMi
cindy =)
kayla
Lauren
Julianne :]
Lauren. not the one above julianne...
Quinn
Lauren Starling
brandon holy damn
shelby
heatherrrr
Hayleee
marshall
Samarah
gericka
chris aka curly
BRADY ROGERS
ALAADIN NAS
AALLY G
krissy ]
morgan!!!!
Colin
Jack
kat the awesomeness ahah just kidding
J-man
RObert
Diana
Stephanie¢¾
Frank
Jordan
Maham-Mayham (:
Emily
Robert Alston
jessica
MICHELLE.
natalieeee
KAYLA!
carlyyy.!
Katiee. !
Heather!
Maggie <33
chelsea
ashley
SHARELLE...MY ASTHMATIC BUTT CHEATED
Jasmine--eee im runnin outta breath lol HA sharelle
lexus..wow
megann. thats hardd
samantha
nikki
fatima
heatherrrr
angie.
Michy- face is PURPLE>!!!
Eleanor-WTF!!
DYLAN - OMG
Nina - i luv you
shaun- I JUST PROVED THIS RONG
ASHLEIGH BOYECHKO !
ALEX MORRISSETTE
Lydia Brant!! (all-bran)
JESSICA SAIGEON
maya pavlovic <3 ,. <3
ocean melin
Sam H
billy A
TYLER FOOTE =)
brandon carter
Emilie tatlock
cassidy dowling
Natasha Smith
Guy:"Lets have sex right now."
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won't tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.
5 minutes pass.......
Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me.".
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat
Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying, continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.
An hour passes.........
Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, crying.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.
2 months later.........
Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.
The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."
The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits suicide by drug overdose.......
Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "No means no asshole"
Guys, if this story pisses you off, repost it as "I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl"
+ I can't believe your here for a week !! <3
-You fucking cunt !!! You are a fucking drunk don't deny it !
-Why do you hate me ... Why pretend to care ....
+Exams are FINALLY over .. I think I failed hahah
-I miss you ... I wish I could protect you ...
=Am I really an addict ...??? O.o
+Looking forward to an amazing time soon !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Start at 100% and subtract 1% for everything you've done. At the end, re-post this as I am __% of a Virgin at Life.
1. Smoked.
2. Drank alcohol
3. Cried when someone died.
4. Been drunk
5. Had sex.
6. Been to a concert.
7. gotten/given a handjob.
8. gotten/given a blowjob.
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
10. Verbally/sexully harassed somebody.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%
11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or receieved a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 85%
21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sexs house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 79 %
31. Played strip poker/darts.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 73%
41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 67%
51. Watched a person die
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someones room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 61%
61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 54%
71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friends crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started a house fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 49%
81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought youd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over or 3 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 43%
91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped
FINAL PERCENTAGE OF LIFE VIRGINITY: 36%
Great sister time.
Go and watch my sister get her nipple pierced.
Well first doesn't work then she starts bleeding, then almost passes out then almost pukes, wants to do it a different day but Jeremy says no, so he pierces it again and it FINALLY goes and my sister is still bleeding so she gets gauze on her tit then we get to go to Cole's for an AMAZING night.
I love my family and friends.
To: ~..*natasha*..~
From: cuddles4you
Date: Fri Dec 24, 2010 12:40 am
Subject: hey
omg ive always adored a younger girl, if i look like someone youd like to get to know and have some naughty fun with send me a message or text me and let me know who you are from nexx
This gets really annoying.
[x] You have yelled at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[x] You have run into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[x] You have been called a blonde.
TOTAL: 5
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew the Alphabet and Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[x] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
TOTAL: 10
[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
TOTAL: 13
[ ] You have fallen asleep in class.
[x] Sometimes you just can't stop thinking.
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[x] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'
TOTAL: 17
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc..
TOTAL: 21
[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things
[x] You slightly tilt your head when you're confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x] The word "um" is used frequently.
[x] You don't know what "um" means.
[x] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[x] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.
TOTAL: 29
multiply by 4
To: ~..*natasha*..~
From: Naughtybadguy12
Date: Sun Dec 12, 2010 10:58 pm
Subject: No Subject
hey you are soooo fuckin hot. what you think of how i look? I got way more pics and even cam on msn those ones are bad I think of me hahaha. Are you a naughty girl I wouldn't mind some fun with u way more fun if you are. get back to me soon sexy
Seriously hate people like this !
