Holy shit.
Gonna kick the shit outta new kid at work.
Fuck. Where the hell do you get off saying that shit to me?
Fuck you. I'll mother fucking curb stomp you.
I don't take this shit.
This just goes to tell ya how VERY VERY bored I get at work lol.
YAY nex isn't blocked yet here!!!
4 hours and ten minutes left!
This is a letter to a little sister.
Who doesn't understand.
Who couldn't care less.
Who knows who she's hurting, even if its subconciously.
Melissa. We love you and you need to stop doing this to everyone. You are losing more than you know when you dissappear. When you lie. When you steal. When you cheat your way through life.
And now you have pretty much lost the only chance you had at a decent life.
You and I both know it. Everyone around you loves you, so why do you continuously try to torture everyone? Why do you take everyone's best, and throw it in our face?
You seemed to be doing so much better. You know if you ever need a place to stay to get away for a day, a weekend, whatever, my house is basically perpetually open.
I know what it's like to be, not exactly in your shoes, but in similar ones. I, too, have done things i regret. Said things I didn't mean.
But we all grow from them. You can't run from your problems. New boys don't make all your problems go away. They sometimes make life a little more livable. But that's just a temporary fix. You know you have family around you who love you. Friends who do the same.
You aren't alone in the world, so why do you keep acting like it?
Sisters to the end. Neither of us signed on for it, but both of us are stuck with it. And regardless of the situation, I'll always be here for you. It's both my job and my personal promise.
You have lost pretty much everything because of your latest stunt, but I pray that this will hit home enough to make you realise that it's not you that they (auntie lynda and uncle reg) don't want around, it's the behavior, which is not fair to anyone.
We all love you and want to support you, but there is only so much that we can do to help you. The first step is you.
The ball is now in your court. I said my piece.
Now it's up to you to decide who to talk to. Who to trust.
I only hope you don't make the wrong decisions.
since when did my life become the stepping stone for someone else?
I'm in control of my destiny. I will be what i wanna be.
I will succeed in the life i wanna have.
I have to. If not, what else do I have?
Im so tired of always following orders. Allowing myself to be walked all over.
I can't do this anymore. I have to take control again.
I want my life back.
I need my life back.
I miss the way I used to be, and I want to go back to that.
And I will do anything it takes to do it.
k so i just realised how many times a day i say fuck.
um...
so. i quit swearing... ish.
kay maybe ill cut back....
maybe?
kai so...
why is it that when I have something important I wanna say,
i can't find the right words
or I can't think of a way to say those words without scaring you away...
I hate this.
you have no idea how much i love you.
...
fuck.
wow.
more than 3/4 of a mickey... to myself
fuck...
the porcelain gods were not kind.
and the hangover is killer.
eff...
Why the hell would you put the following into a techno song????
And then I took it doggie style (repeatedly)
what the hell. Im so... gah!!!
I don't get it.
... i thought it was saying your not good at dancing....
lol?
GOD DAMN IT...
why do I have to be so awkward around the people who mean the most to me?
and why does every choice I make have to have such bad consequences?
I'm sooo sorry to each and every one of you to whom I have been the biggest jerk in the world to within the last few weeks.
If there is anything I can do to make it up to you please tell me.
Im sorry...
am I just a bad person?
whatever happened to Ice skates
and roller blades.
or honesty and respect.
or peace and quiet?
I miss days when i could make through the day and not end up wanting to cry.
& when I didn't feel like the world was letting me down.
& when I had real friends not fake "im using you" friends.
& when the entire world wasn't about 3 things:
Money, work and being sad.
eff
saturday nov. 10 - Nada
sunday nov. 11 - work(I think lol)
monday nov .12 - NO SCHOOL!!(prolly work at 4)
tuesday nov.13 - school &work till 9
wednesday nov.14 - musical theater
thursday nov. 15 - school and work
friday nov. 16 - school and work
saturday nov.17 - musical theater and then nada?
wanna make plans? text or call me kai?
Repost with your sign and eye color....Then everyone knows how you really are!
LEO: Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at sex. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find, but good when found.
CANCER: Most amazing kisser. Very high sex appeal. Great in bed. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet. Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
VIRGO: Dominant in relationships. Sexy. Someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.
SCORPIO: Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. Freak in bed. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring, and Funny.
LIBRA: Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet. Amazing in Bed. Not the kind of person you wanna fuck with, they'll make you cry. The most irresistible.
ARIES: Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to fuck with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships. Addictive. Loud. Best in bed.
AQUARIUS: Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. a great Fighter, that will knock your lights out. (Amazing in bed.)
GEMINI: Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the hell out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. Ultra sexy. The most irresistable.
PISCES: Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.
CAPRICORN: Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible. Awes0me kisser. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Very sexy. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first so you'll never forget. Smart.
TAURUS: Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual. Sexy. Most caring person you will ever meet. One of a kind. Not one to fuck with.
SAGITTARIUS: Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High sex appeal. Rare to find but great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet. Amazing in bed. Not the kind of person you wanna fuck with because you might end up crying.
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Blue Eyes-
People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are pretty or handsome & very good kissers. They always fall in love with their closest friends and never understand why, they are very funny and outgoing and don't care what people think or say. They are very satisfying and love to please. They will always exceed your pleasure standards. The best of all. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 4 days.
Green Eyes-
Sex Addicts!!! People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, people with green eyes are very cute and love to cuddle. They have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the best in bed. They long for the touch of another. People with green eyes are very very sexy and very attractive towards the opposite sex.
Hazel eyes-
People with hazel eyes are gorgeous and go all out all the time. They have the most unusual relationships. They're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. They are also the best in bed and love to play games they are very outgoing and they are sexy as hell and they are NOT nice when they are mad . If you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your new favorite technique of catching someone special
Brown Eyes-
Sexy as hell, people with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. Best in bed can last for days.....way better than hazel eyed people.....Loves to please the one they care or love for,very good kissers, are straight up WARRIORS, not one to mess with,repost this if you have brown eyes
what a shitty day.
I worked 9 hours
I crashed really hardcore at work
I am rediculously sick
I made the boy angry at me(by accident... Im so sorry...)
I am in pain on so many different levels.
On the plus side:
I had an audition for Robert Powers talent agency
And I find out tomorrow if I get a call back...
But...
I can't even enjoy it cuz the one person I want to be happy for me, doesn't want to speak to me. (have I mentioned how sorry and stupid I am?)
